4 Years

Well it was four years ago today that I went into labor with my twins Winton & Hannah.  Even though it has been 4 years it feels just like yesterday.  I remember the day very well.  I remember feeling like our world was falling apart and it was falling apart.  Most people would have been very excited to head to the hospital to deliver their babies but for us we knew that our babies would be born to early and would not survive.  First Hannah was born and than the next day our son Winton was born.  Hannah was born still and Winton only lived for minutes.  I have never felt this way, it was awful.  Dave and I were devastated.  We watched our dreams shatter right before us.   The pain was unbearable and even after all these years it still hurts just the same.  

This Christmas will be different though.  We have a beautiful 3 year old Jaidyn who is an absolute doll and our sweet baby boy Lincoln that is 2 months old.  Having them makes things easier.  Although it doesn't stop the pain it helps ease it.  Our beautiful babies are our world.  We love them more than anything.  Although we can not change what has happened to us we can continue forward and learn from everything.  We are shaped by our past.  Our twins have helped make us who we are today.  I will never forget Hannah and Winton they will live in our hearts forever.