That Feeling......

That feeling.....
I was standing in the shower. It was christmas eve. I was supposed to be getting ready to give my family their christmas presents from the babies but instead I was taking a shower to go to the funeral home. Yep a funeral home.
I felt like I was going to pass out, I yelled for Dave. He was all I had. No more babies. No more dreams. No more hope.

That feeling.....
it is a horrible feeling. Your world is crashing and you don't know where to go. Do you have anything left? It comes in a moment and it leaves in a moment.

That feeling.....
It came again yesterday. No reason, no reason at all- I guess that is how grief works.

Splash Universe

Mom, is that Abby?
Are we staying the whole night?
With Abby?
We are going to have soooo much fun!

And so much fun we had!! What a great time!
In celebration of mine and Joe Shifflett's birthday we all headed down to Dundee to go to Splash Universe!
The kids had such a great time! Even the little ones! Lincoln loved playing in the baby pool with Audrey. And Jaidyn and Abby were unstoppable. Abby is fearless and went all of the water slides.

Family Pictures

In mid January we took the kids to Portrait Innovations for pictures!
Every picture turned out great! Of course like every mother does I worried all night how the kids would do.

Would they smile?
Would they cry?
Would they listen?
Would I be happy with the pictures?

And I was, they all turned out amazing! and I spent way to much money!
Even the pictures we all took together turned out!
I can not believe how big the kids are getting. Jaidyn is such a big 4 year old and such a great older sister. Lincoln is such a cute 1 year old and honestly the happiest kid I know!